I totally believe that what you put into something is what others get out of it. 99% of the time I LOVE what I do, the things that I create & the joy I bring to people who BLISS OUT after one small bite.
Ever see "Like Water For Chocolate"? You know the scene. The one where they cry while preparing the food, then everyone who eats it starts crying.....I had one episode like this. For real. I've not been able to write about it yet & it's nearly a year already. This is also the first time I'm posting pics of this particular wedding cake. I've never shown them to anyone. They aren't in my portfolio, either.
It was last October 1st, a Saturday. I had an Open House, many orders & one unique wedding cake to serve several hundred people. One of those weekends where I go to sleep at 2 AM-ish & wake up at 5 AM-ish.
I was home at a little after 1 AM. My Australian Shepherd, Bella, always came out to greet D & I when we got home. Sometimes it would require a call from each of us, but she always came out from her bed in the back of the house. Well, she wouldn't come out for us, but I heard her tags jingle & figured she was just tired. Once in bed, I heard the pitter patter of her paws & contemplated checking on her, but I fell asleep first. I awoke at 4AM. First thing I did was go over to Bella, sprawled out on the floor & gave her a kiss. She didn't move. I knew. Damn it, I knew right away. It didn't stop me from shaking her repeatedly & screaming her name. She was only 5 years old & in good health (or so we thought).
She waited until I got home. Then she went to sleep & never woke up. She had the most peaceful, beautiful look on her face. Her eyes were closed & she was smiling. I woke D up & told him, crying my eyes out with a severe migraine coming on. He didn't believe me. That made it worse, he thought he was having a bad dream. He went over & tried to wake her up.
We decided to go to the shoppe & open, setting everything up so our helpers could take over from there, then go & buy a tree when the landscape company opened & bury her in the back yard next to it.
I am the ultimate when it comes to obligation. I have never, & would never cancel a wedding cake under any circumstances, including this one. D & I got the shoppe going, finished up a few orders & left at 10AM for the tree. I think I'll skip the rest of the details because I'll just start crying otherwise. Suffice it to say, she was buried & the tree was planted by noon. I had to get back to the shoppe to finish the wedding cake.
I had frosted & decorated the top tier with my tears flowing non-stop & a full-blown excruciating migraine. It still looked good! HA! Some of my most gorgeous cakes were created when I felt my worst, go figure?!
The decos were solid Belgian Dark Chocolate with golden leaf imprints. A dear customer came in just after I finished everything. I told her what happened, she gave me a hug & said, 'The last thing you need to be doing is making a wedding cake!' I replied, 'I can't stop crying. I just don't want everyone at the wedding to eat the cake & cry.' I was quite serious, although I think this lady didn't understand my thought process. *chuckles* She looked at me strangely.
I was worried about that. I knew it would look great & they would be pleased. I just didn't want to bring all my sadness into someone else's special 'happy' day.
The delivery was a good 20+ minutes away, & wouldn't you know it! I had to pull over a few times as the migraine progressed to that final stage of 'cookie tossing'. We made it there eventually, set everything up & D said he'd take pics. I didn't want any because I new they'd only remind me of Bella. He insisted. I suppose now, looking back, I'm glad that he did.
This last paragraph is for those of you that thought I was crazy with my 'silly' worries about crying while finishing the cake. The aunt of the groom was a friend of mine (BTW, she did NOT know what had happened with my Bella). She called a few weeks after the wedding to tell me how fabulous the cake looked & tasted. Everybody raved about it. Then she said, "I have to tell you this! I went over to see the cake first thing. It was so beautiful I had to make sure the bride saw it before everything got too crazy. I pulled her away from the photographers & took her to see the cake. The second she saw it she started crying. She thought it was perfect. Then I started crying. The two of us were standing in front of the cake table and crying! I don't know what came over us!"